Whaaat it's been three weeks?

12:50 am, current location: DogPatch Labs - current situation: reaching the point in which you've been staring at the computer, in silence, for hours and your hearing becomes extra sensitive to every creak, crack and snap made by the surrounding appliances and objects, and you start to panic because you think you hear someone, but everyone left four hours ago, and then your imagination kicks in with all sorts of thriller-movie scenarios and flashbacks of how you could potentially end up in someone's trunk.. holyyy shit and now I'm looking all around me in terror...but, anyways, where was I?

Right. It has been three weeks since I've been working with BalconyTV here in Dublin. Trust me, enough has happened: alcohol poisoning, fire alarms gone off 5 times while I'm cooking, broken washing machine (no really, wtf? water started erupting out of the thing like a turbo jacuzzi jet and soon the kitchen slash living room was being giving a thorough washing instead of my clothes) anyways, bad dates, lonely nights, a 4-day starvation eggplant-tomato-egg diet (low budget those days), crying, existential crisis, got only two followers on twitter, and concluded the only solution would be joining a travelling theatre group and quitting college -an option still on the table. 

I know, I know, it sounds tragic.... okay who am I kidding, I've been laughing at myself during half of those situations and learned that blasting music on my headphones does the trick for when I cook- can hear that deafening siren NO MORE! Along with the latest satirical tragedies of my life, has come a ton of positive progress! Doing Bikram Yoga every other day, quit smoking, doing a marvelous "movement and expression" workshop at The Lir, FINALLY submitted the damn eight page report to Google, got laid, incorporated a couple of ingredients -apart from eggplant- into my daily diet, met decent people, skyped old friends, achieved approximately 8 hours of productive and passionate BTV work every day, have met at least fifteen of the BTV producers around the world, and the most exciting of all...... filmed for the first time in my life- for BalconyTV Dublin!! Fun, fun- got to spend time with the bands on the balcony, next time I'm taking wine! By the way, I was just kidding about the getting laid part, I wouldn't throw out such a blunt statement to my readers whom I barely know, now would I?  ;) 

So, I wanted to write about music... and my development as I am exposed more and more to inspiring and creative independent artists through the world of BalconyTV, but I'll save it mostly for the next post since its around 2:30 am already, for now one thing I have confirmed, which I actually conversed about with one of the singer-songwriters we recently had on BalconyTV is---

Don't allow your past to decide your future, if you didn't grow up learning five instruments, singing in the choir and composing original pieces by the age of 10- don't let that keep you away from music, don't be all "comparing yourself to other people" AND never tell yourself that you suck- really, what a generic and un-precise word that is. Create the opportunity for yourself. There is hope! How do I know? Well I had a serious conversation with a very good musician who began his work and taught himself how to play various instruments after the age of 20, and I'm sure there are plenty more of those brave souls out there.

This just reminded me of a line that really caught my attention when I heard it, and found it to be lovely, from the movie/book called The Help by Kathryn Stockett: "You is kind, you is smart, you is important". Tell yourself that.

Now before I start getting all emotional, which tends to happen as the night grows heavy and deep, note it is 2:51 am, I will go... out into the rainy cold Irish night and hope I don't get taken by the imaginary prowler I've been hearing for the past two hours. I hope this post leads to a couple laughs, because I just spent a too much time enjoying myself as I wrote it, and now have a banging headache and am scared shitless to walk home.

Cheers!
@BTV_and_Beer
*At the end of my posts I shall include a little exercise similar to "describe yourself in 5 adjectives"*
Today's post in a couple of words: smoke, barf, tears, eggplant, The Lir, Google, yoga, dreams, balconies

So far in Dublin..

So, feeling a little more destroyed than fresh after endless nights of drinking with the Irish in Dublin (going to sign up at a gym TODAY). You know, it's funny... I would've never imagined such friendly people existed up here! And by these people I mean: THE IRISH.

I'm pretty compatible with the irish... At first, I thought I had just gotten lucky with the few I had met, but last night @ The Globe I met another approximate 10 of these amiable sociable irish men, hahaha, I'm really excited about these upcoming two months.

Current situation after one week in Dublin: got a great little flat =), have a couple groceries in the fridge and more than just a couple of acquaintances on the street, my luggage is around 60% unpacked, and I've gone out 6 out of the 8 nights so far!

As for BALCONYTV.... got some good work going on! Have been giving these guys my fuuuulll blown attention for the past couple days, and it will stay like that for the next couple of months. Filmed a couple of great shows last Sunday, and have a bunch of great bands listed for this weekend!